In an effort to tell a more authentic story about what infertility feels like, I’ve decided to start recording video diaries. Follow along for the unedited, unprocessed, and probably a bit messy version of this whole experience.

Diary #5: Angry. Frustrated. Tired.

I got some disappointing news at my Day 14 ultrasound today and I’m fighting not to let it ruin my day.

Diary #4: PARTLY CLOUDY

After another failed IUI, I’m trying to keep morale up by focusing on all the options we still have on the table.

Diary #3: ANXIOUS (but maybe in a good way)

Five days out from our most recent IUI, I’m trying to think positive, but it’s too easy to let my mind wander to the dark side.

Diary #2: A GLIMMER OF HOPE

School’s out, I’m sleeping better, my vegetable garden is in, and I’m feeling good.

Diary #1: DESPONDENT AND DISHEARTENED

Three days before our next IUI, I’m having a rough week.